The first thing that finally motivated me to sit down and write this out is some sad news about Blue October.
Blue October was supposed to start a new tour today. It was a tour to raise awareness for Mental Illness and Suicide Prevention. Sadly the tour has been cancelled due to Justin being hospitalized due to his own mental illness.
The Pick Up The Phone Tour 2009 has been canceled due to the hospitalization of Justin Furstenfeld, lead singer of the tour’s headlining band Blue October. Furstenfeld, who was also the spokesperson for Pick Up The Phone Tour 2009, is being treated for suffering from an extreme mental anxiety attack. His doctors have ordered that the tour—which was committed to reducing the stigma associated with mental health, depression, and suicide—be canceled to allow for his recovery.My heart broke a little bit when I read that announcement. Although the tour was not coming anywhere near me I was so excited that it was happening. To be able to raise awareness for such an important and neglected cause was such an
exciting opportunity for the band. My thoughts and prayers go out to each of the
members of Blue October and their families.
Here is the PSA for the tour. Even though the tour has been cancelled the message in this video is still true and important.
“Mental health diseases are unpredictable,” says Furstenfeld. “And on the eve of this tour in support of a cause that means the world to me, I am in need of time to heal from a setback in my own personal life, which is severe enough for me to seek hospitalization. I hope that my action to seek the strength and safety of treatment will inspire others that are suffering to do the same.”
The other reason is because of one of their songs that I can't get out of my head. Life has been quite crazy lately and I've been struggling a lot. It seems every time I turn on my Blue October playlist on my i-pod Independently Happy is one of the first songs I hear. I've decided that my i-pod thinks I need to get the message ;)
It's been a good reminder that I'm responsible for my happiness. I have a tendency to allow others to dictate my mood and my happiness level and I need to stop doing that. I am in control. This is my life and I need to remember that I'm in charge of my own happiness. I know that this is a lifelong struggle but this song has helped focus me recently.
Here's a video of the song. (warning! language at 3:07 if you don't want to watch it you can read the lyrics here)
So as Justin says at the end of this video- I'm working on happy....